I crawled in to bed about 7 pm last night. I was feeling very cold, my joints were aching a lot, & I had a really bad cough; my throat was so raw & sore I wanted to tear it out! It would have been less painful! Yesterday morning, when I took Mo'o out I noticed that my knees were aching; my 1st though was that I had forgotten to take my collagen supplements for a couple weeks, but that wasn't it; I have been pretty consistent with taking the supplements because they do help my knee pain. My 2nd thought was, Oh, no! I'm getting old! Which is unavoidable if one continues to be alive. In hindsight, I see that it was the beginning of this illness I am dealing with. The knees stopped hurting once the fever passed.
I had a very active evening. I felt like I was surrounded by faceless black humanoid shapes that kept crowding me. I kept pushing them away & grunting at them. (Not sure why I had no words.) It reminded me of being at a shopping mall during the holiday shopping sprees; one of my least favorite places. The black shapes were about a head taller than me; much like being in a shopping mall frenzy. But there was one other shape there that was a little taller than the other shapes. It was standing behind me but not pushing up against me like the other shapes. The taller shape was also pushing the other black shapes away from me & giving me more room to move. I was grateful for the help from the taller shape but I still tore up the bed! My sheets & quilt & pillows were thrown all over the place when I woke up this morning! No wonder I felt like I did not get a good rest last night.
I woke up about 6 am this morning; even though I was still in really bad shape I had to let Mo'o out. Fortunately, she responds to voice commands so I was able to tell her to go to the back door, then let her out & have her take care of herself the rest of the day. When I brought her in this evening, I also used voice commands; I am so glad she responds well. I would not have been able to chase her down to get her back in. Right now she is in my room in her guarding position between the door & my bed, chewing on one of her bones. I think I might let her stay in my room tonight. (Usually she patrols the interior of the house & alerts me to strange noises or actions. Like an earthquake; although I usually pick up on those before the temblor arrives.)
FYI This is the 1st time since I moved to Kohala 4&1/2 years ago that I have been so sick that Kai was concerned that I live by myself. And that's only because he happened to call me when I was in the middle of a coughing fit. When I moved to Washington, I never told my mother about being sick or doing things she would not approve of (like skydiving), I felt it was better to keep her in the dark so she wouldn't worry. I tend to do the same thing with Kai. (He rarely reads the blog so is unlikely to find out about this. DON'T TELL HIM!)
Going back to sleep now.







































